Excitement anxiety. What is it exactly? Other than my unique experience with low levels of anxiety, it's best described as a combination of Fear of Missing Out (FOMO) and butterflies in your stomach. It's the feeling I get when there are too many good things going on. Yes, you read that right. I know it doesn't make sense, but I often feel anxious in the summer when making weekend plans because I so badly want to squeeze every last activity onto the calendar. I love the summer; I'm happiest in the summer, but sometimes I need to take a step back and remind myself I can't do everything, and that's okay.
What are ALL of these activities? Well...
I live for my free time in the summer. Whether after work or on the weekends, I'm constantly contemplating my activities calendar. Is it a good night for the pool? Maybe we should grill tonight! There's a free concert at the park, let's go. When was the last time I worked on this blog? There's a new recipe I've been meaning to try. My brain just keeps going, the tightness in my chest keeps rising, and before I know it, I've turned an enjoyable thought into a scary monster.
My ability to delicately curate a weekend of urban adventures would make me an excellent tour guide, but even I will admit I leave myself a little exhausted. Take last Saturday, for example. We started our day at 9:30 at the gym, then went straight home for a little yard work, got ready for the rest of the day, made a quick run to the farmer's market, whipped up a delicious coleslaw dish for a friend's picnic later that day, went to the picnic, then we walked to a nearby pool (it was 100 degrees outside), traveled back home for a second shower of the day and a quick snack, took a bus to the movie theater, and finally finished the day with drinks at Gaslight Tavern. Phew! It was an incredible day, but I may have worn my poor husband out.
I've talked many times before (here, here, here, and here) about finding balance in life. The goal isn't to be perfect though, and I believe sometimes finding balance means acknowledging just that, because maybe the constant worry about too much or too little summer fun creates more problems than good.
So how can I work toward lowering my excitement anxiety?
Walking enthusiast, and kitchen experimenter currently living out my dream in Mexico City, Mexico.
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